Fake

Today I’m feeling blue…

I feel empty after meet with some of friends, having chit chat with them..

I don’t know what’s going on with me..

I feel I’m being good with fake smile, pretending, “two faces” . Every laugh and comment from me seems sincere. 

Before, I hate fake peoples, who put masks in their self just because they want to accepted by others. In my opinion, just being yourself ! they should go for casting wth that skill, be an actor or actress. 

But look at me now ! 

Should I say thankful for these acts ? because now I understand how to survive in this cruel world. But in another points, I’m sad. I’m afraid I’ll lose my innocence and faith that there are still good people out there.

I’m sorry God. I’m sorry I’m not being grateful for every Your gift, every present that You give for me…